Life lately

Heya So, it has been a VERY LONG two months, life has been life-ing at over 400km/h. I feel like I have been through the pit of hell since May, and I am still in some version of the pittz. I will start with school first, I was already a bit behind on the program but since my “accident” in May, I now feel like I took 10 steps back because I am literally playing catch up with my assignment submissions and my tests, it is chaos nje, I even missed an assignment ye-18% yonke, cry with me. But ke I am not going to dwell on this as I need to push and make sure I will be ready for the 3 rd tests now in July…

Second it is work, Yho! I have been back at work for just under a month mara I am still trying to catch up namanje, ndiyagowa. It is so bad I still haven’t fully caught up on emails, it is as though I went on leave and all hell broke loose because I came back to a flood of emails. Having to catch up on tasks aside, I am still seeing flames, and it has been 10 months now. I can confirm that inter-company is not for sissies, plus it is a lot of work, you literally must know/apply the stuff you did at university. But overall, with this, work is challenging but also very enjoyable once you “get” what you are doing so I would say I am satisfied.

That leaves my personal life, which has been falling to pieces physically (I am still obese and not losing weight), financially (I have gone back to abusing the credit card and revolving loans) and mentally (thanks to my current limitations). So currently not at 100% but actively trying to get back to base, and that is my life update. Love, Geenius.

March Was “The pits” 😂😂

After a very hectic and very taxing March, I really hope that i can actually document April... Litera making this post bcoz藍藍藍 #AsYouWere Love, Geenius.

To Life

I more than likely will edit this post later  but Feb was such a good but also bad month all in one. The below quote will be my theme/moto for the year as I have seen how quickly life can get "terrible" by kist letting a few things slide.I have seen deterioration from personal relationships to personal finances and how quickly those can get out of hand by you just "going with the flow" and not thinking about the ripple effect of one's small/daily decisions.

Love, Geenius.

New Year, Old Self

"I come back" LOL, so I have decided that 2023 is the year I will write some stuff on this here blog, I commit to writing at least 12 posts this year, 1 for each month 😂 my reason is that I found the below picture as I was decluttering some of my stuff and it reminded me of some of the things I have started and left hanging, for no other reason except that those required some effort. So this is definitely not the year I become the new me, but there year I reconnect with the old me to bring about some change.

Hope this year will be kinder to all of us (LOL I have already had a rocky start)& to better years... Love, Geenius.

Sweet Love

Heya

So I was recently asked about what I am passionate about, as in what gives me life and the first thought I had was money, a LOT of money but a fraction of a second after I thought money was my passion, I realized it was not. So I visualized that if I was a dollar millionaire today, then would that give me life, that zest that we all want and like to feel and the simple answer to this was, NO. Sure being MS. Money bags would not hurt but it would not leave me feeling that zing…

So almost 2 weeks have passed now since I was asked this question and I still don’t have the answer, at one point I had settled on that I am passionate about teaching people about how to establish a healthy relationship with money, I was crashed yet again when it hit me that my own relationship with money is falling apart (Not that it was ever stable), but now it is just going south.

The quest to find my passion led me to realize why I didn’t really know what gives me life. How can I know what gives me life when I am not living it but just existing? I look in the mirror and I do not recognize the person staring back at me, literally. I have gained so much weight that I don’t look like myself anymore, which ripples to me not feeling like myself, therefore I do not behave like myself and this has led to me being the opposite of being a G. How can I be a Geenius without the G.

Fattie bella

So my biggest aspiration right now is to be a Geenius, again, because that woman knows what she wants, she is assertive, she is beautiful, she is kind, she knows her worth, she is brilliant and because she knows she deserves to be phenomenal and is phenomenal, she shows up and will show up…

Goalz (I aspire to ukuveza ithanga gape)

So my biggest aspiration right now is to be a Geenius, again, because that woman knows what she wants, she is assertive, she is beautiful, she is kind, she knows her worth, she is brilliant and because she knows she deserves to be phenomenal and is phenomenal, she shows up and will show up…

So here is to making the hard but necessary decisions to being who I want to be.

Love, Geenius.

iiBig Dayz...

Heya

So, the last time I posted anything here was is almost 2 years ago now, over that time I have evolved, met the best and worst versions of myself and have become almost one and a half version of who I was back in 2014 when I wrote this post. After all this time I still feel like I want to write, now more than ever because I know I have a story to tell and just because I don’t know how I want to go about ‘blogging’ about it should be the reason I don’t attempt to. So ja, I am Geenius and I will start/ continue rather, with this blogging thing, if only for my sanity. So allow me to reintroduce myself. :)

My Joan Smalls days...(Pre-2016)

My Kate Upton days...(Now in 2016)

 

iiBig Days... Geenius Still.

 

  

Love, Geenius.

Fashion Friends Launch

Heya

I was invited to the launch of Foschini’s Fashion Friends in Sandton two weeks back. Fashion friends are there to give you clothing advice, let you know of current trends, dressing for your body & all that stuff and you can find them www.foschini.co.za or follow #FashionFriends on social networks. The launch was fun, there was food & drinks (my main reason for going anywhere), got a free pair of news jeans with the option to get them ripped, gift cards, we were dolled up (I chose Estee Lauder thinking they can make me look like Joan Smalls but eh…) which was great as I went there wearing zero make-up *welleh* and the goodie bag was great ;). It was overall a fun night out with friends, dankie Foschini.

Lele from Style & Exito

The homies (Nell, Dorah, Lele)

Love, Geenius.